Sunday, August 14, 2005

God Remembers

That sounds a little odd doesn't it? Does God forget people? However, when the Bible talks about God remembering someone... it's not that he forgot they were there, it just means that he returns to someone with special compassion and concern... after leaving them in a particular situation.

I am hoping that this is what God is working in me at the moment. I've struggled long and hard at the bottom of a cistern, waiting to be rescued! I talked through the Proverbs scripture I've been wrestling with, with a leader at church... and got it prayed over.

We covered the ground where Rachel was frustrated by her barrenness... and God "remembers" her later and when the time is right she is blessed with Joseph. Similarly God "remembers" Noah, just before the flood (good job really).

I realised this morning that despite forgiving the person who hurt me a while back, I had not told them... instead I had completely ignored them. I feel that God was challenging that stance I had taken this morning. A scripture was on my heart, specifically the bit in bold:

""Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."
He also told them this parable: "Can a blind man lead a blind man? Will they not both fall into a pit? A student is not above his teacher, but everyone who is fully trained will be like his teacher.
"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, 'Brother, let me take the speck out of your eye,' when you yourself fail to see the plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye."

I realised that just because I'm not comfortable around someone because of what they did to me, and don't wish to be close to them again; it gives me no excuse to blank them out of everything.

Lately I've been worried that somebody I have discovered feelings for, is not talking to me... and I don't know why. Yet how can I expect them to talk to me, if I myself am not prepared to talk? How dare I have the audacity to moan to God that someone is silent with regard to me.... if I myself am silent to another. Repentance comes before revival, both personally and nationally, so I knew i had to act.... whether I be blessed or not... righteousness requires me to settle my accounts peaceably.

I sent a text today, to acknowledge and thank the person who hurt me for sending back my borrowed belongings, to forgive them for the pain they caused... to apologise for my silence... and to say that I needed to remain distant, but not that I intended to be ignorant.

I don't know if God is going to help me out in my specific circumstance but I can only trust in him. It was weird that the Bible verse today was on Joseph... because that's largely where I feel I am. Having received promises and visions for the future... I find myself stuck in a cistern wondering how God will get me out of the pickle.

I'm waiting God... please answer.... remember me.

As David would say.... "Come Quickly Lord."

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