Friday, February 02, 2007

Subtle Changes

I'm starting to believe it... I'm changing.

Had some news in the week, that clearly indicated a door had been closed to me. I could have moped on... "woe is me", with regard to my situation, goodness knows I've done that often enough. I surprised myself by being OK with it and taking it in my stride. My attitude towards closed doors has changed. In the past I'd be frustrated, that every door I tried would be firmly locked. A phrase keeps going through my head, that seems to be keeping me afloat:

Every decrease in possibilities brings about an increase in certainties.

I don't think I've read that anywhere, but it fits how I feel like a glove. You see chess master Nick Payne would be probing each one of those possibilities until the stars failed in the night sky.... but I'm learning that the things I don't need on my journey, won't take root within me. I don't have to second guess what might be or what might have been, because only that which is certain will come about.

The good thing about this, is that I'm not missing as many "moments". You know what I'm on about, the small things in life,... the little blessings from God, the things of beauty that just slip quietly by into the night if we are to busy to notice them.

Tonight I was walking from work, to meet up with my mate, it was about 5:35pm and the sun had not long set. About halfway down Henley Street, I heard birdsong. It was so loud, proud and beautifully clear that I tracked it to it's source. there atop a chimney stack, was the silhouette of a tiny bird. A tiny bird with such a loud and expressive voice. I just had to stop and take it in.

A slightly more disturbing twist in my new positivity, is that I'm singing a lot more at work... but I'm also a lot more relaxed and motivated, so even if my colleagues disapproved of my voice (which they don't), they have plenty of reasons to remain chipper.

I look in the mirror and my face doesn't seem as heavy... and I know I'm smiling a lot more.

Now for the crazy part. This next bit probably won't make sense to most of you.

I get the strangest feeling that the scar on my chest is a bit smaller... or at the very least thinner. I feel like I'm growing less conscious of it... and some form of healing is definitely under way. whether that is purely psychological, spiritual or also physical remains to be seen.

It doesn't matter, God is good and he is taking me into calmer waters. We'll have to see how this develops.

God bless


Nick

Every decrease in possibilities brings about an increase in certainties.

5 comments:

  1. This is a great post, Nick, beautifully done. Thanks for reminding me of my priorities.

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  2. Its fantastic when we suddenly notice God has changed us inside so subtly that we don't notice immediately. Then something happens and God shows us the inner shift in our thinking or emotions.

    Great Stuff!

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  3. Hey Nick,
    Just wanted to say thank you for your comments and those two terrific quotes on my latest post. They really lifted me today. It wasn't a great day back in the office and I have a meeting on Wednesday that could be difficult but your comment gave me hope and reminded me (shows I'm not taking any notice of my own posts!) that God does see the good in me.
    Glad to hear that you are getting into more positive territory. This truly is also an encouragement to me that someone else who has had worries etc is coming through the other side. Keep going and I hope I'll be joining you in the smile section really soon.
    Thanks again
    BunnyGirl

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  4. Hey Nick,
    Just wanted to say thank you for your comments and those two terrific quotes on my latest post. They really lifted me today. It wasn't a great day back in the office and I have a meeting on Wednesday that could be difficult but your comment gave me hope and reminded me (shows I'm not taking any notice of my own posts!) that God does see the good in me.
    Glad to hear that you are getting into more positive territory. This truly is also an encouragement to me that someone else who has had worries etc is coming through the other side. Keep going and I hope I'll be joining you in the smile section really soon.
    Thanks again
    BunnyGirl

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  5. Nick, I absolutely believe it; the scar, and all. This is the year, my friend, that our God is renewing His fame, and beginnign to restore what our enemy has stolen.
    Glory to Him who sits on the throne!!
    Shalom

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